I love this but it makes me sad……. It’s so simple & so obvious yet BPD has been in the shadows ruining life’s, friendships, relationships. Mine own, to be sure.
I realised I did a clever thing in isolating, it was top self preservation, everything hurt so much, I didn’t have much choice but it’s how I’ve learnt to be more comfortable being alone which is one of the classic BPD indicators (not being able to be alone). By limiting my exposure to others I’ve limited the risky coming together & parting again natural cycle that magnifies our aloneness, so excruciating, so wildly triggering with attendant fears of &/or actual false perception of rejection or even actual real world rejection risks at every juncture.
and this one by same channel is quite neat & useful too
I lose concentration so easily, whilst I was watching it I was thinking, oh I will comment on this and that & now a few mins later I can’t remember what, I’d have to watch it again. So I will let it speak for itself.
One thing that’s salient though is the fact that different sufferers will have very much more of one symptom & little or none of another. For instance I don’t relate at all to the symptom of feeling very empty, ever, I am never bored, I have far too much going on internally to be bored but I do get very easily overwhelmed & I do very easily disassociate, lose time & feel mentally very confused.
So funny, watching it again & I keep disassociating at ‘trust issues’ 3 times I tried to watch that bit lol 😂
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