Twit Thread

Begin at the beginning - well I would but I already started with a thread on twitter - which despite unrolling it, I cannot post it to here so here's the link - 

https://threadreaderapp.com/thread/1383128376265875456.html

but that's going to feel incomplete so I will replicate it here also, for my own comfort & sense of being all in the same place.

Here goes:

My 1906 Steinway Model O - this was my Great Aunts/ (fairy) God Mothers - somehow gratefully came into my world circa 2015 - its arrival actually contributed to the major BP1 High I had that year (pictured) which got me diagnosed - 3 decades of intense suffering too late but hey

Attempting to arrange its arrival single handedly was an unmitigated tragi/comedy disaster, which is kind of the norm I've come to expect as someone with brain damage to the frontal cortex executive organising part of the brain.

You don't want the gory details of the wake of destruction & demolition that resulted in this 6'6 grand piano entering my living room. Suffice to say I needed a jobbing builder, in all 3 times.......

This was me - back in the day - my lovely friend Simon recorded me to iPhone & I made a little show reel to get work in Care homes, which I did. Live Acoustic Harp at Littlehempston Church, 18th April 2013 https://youtu.be/53SUZ3d1m-s via

@YouTube

I wasn't so well. I had permanent anxiety, stress induced hallucinations, intense paranoia & what I know now to be disassociation caused by my then undiagnosed Borderline Personality Disorder. (Only Diagnosed 2019!) I had a guitar covers channel on YouTube but its gone.I might try & find the old videos - I was ok, I sing in tune. But really I must record the piano as this is my main thing this last 8 years now - I'm not in a rush tho, I hate recording. I love playing but hate recording.

I’m an unusual never medicated, never hospitalised Bipolar 1

I’m a huge student of natural medicine, across the board, I’ve studied most everything. The stuff I found that helps me the most I still use daily.

#bipolardisorder #BPD #GAD #panicdisorder #CPTSD