Well

I'm so glad I'm not blogging for support, cause that fucker is so hard to come by......lol

I'm definitely really benefiting from the self expression practice though, from trying to share. I used you, my blog for ranting about getting bullied & I feel so much more able to defend myself in those circumstances now - although there hasn't been another since the 3 incidents I've complained about on here, i do not feel so scared on one happening.

So, in the service of expanding self expression here's a couple of minimally verbal but skyline beautiful videos I made last night. 

I did open iMovie for the first time in over a decade though - what a nightmare - it might as well be explained in Russian for all the good I find the instructions. Crashed the computer. Panic attacks. I am to some extent techno phobic these days.

I had corrected the orientation of this one but must I have failed to keep the change I made - techno inadequate that I am, so frustrating.

Its hard to explain how disabling struggling with relationships is, difficulty with all interpersonal relationships - misreading people, misunderstanding their intentions, feeling paranoia..... that's just the brief interactions - now imagine it on a friendship or relationship level.

Theres a brilliant Dylan Moran sketch about choosing dogs over humans in relationship - yes, Dylan, it is all the I challenge want, its off Aim Low I think - I used to be in love with Dylan Moran but now post-menopause I think I'm in love with his wife. One of my dogs is named after him though, that's a compliment, keeps him close in spirit.

People with mental illness must watch comedy of their choice - its the law - its the neurotransmitters - the right comedian is an SSRI for the soul.

oh I found this its a bit more recent - no, I do still adore him actually......

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