It is! It’s also the thought of relationship allergy & in my case it’s the Uber extreme thought of having any sort of close friend or pair bond allergy…..
I would do anything not to suffer from a friendship allergy or perhaps hypersensitivity is a better word.
In between episodes there’s these golden, gliding periods of time, when I think an episode has managed to burn itself out or something or I’ve achieved an effective strong enough distraction or I’ve managed to trick my brain chemistry with the right endorphin boosting supplement or activity and in those golden pain free times my mind works properly again & I realise that this is the normal functioning state for a human being, this is an appropriate state from which to go into the world, with this unhindered brain & warm soft buffered nervous system, not the raw nerve state that I’m usually having to face the world with.
Just venting x
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