Ive been using this for a few days now & I think its like taking Valium without any side effects or come down, although i've never taken one so how would I know......... First time I used it I basically passed out on the floor & it was the first time in I can't remember how long that the felt sense of anxiety sensation I have constantly down my spine in my upper back & shoulders, vagus nerve pain/contraction/constriction/agitation - completely disappeared - so thats pretty wow!
I mean it comes back terrifically easily when something triggers me, like the dogs go off or wtv - I think i've got Trauma bonding with the dogs..... seriously its been a nightmare. Maybe not trauma bonding, maybe just a vicious circle of us all having easily aroused nervous systems & not being able to break it. Wtv. So painful.
Bizarrely I do see getting the dogs when I did as a monumental act of self sabotage that saved my life..... the story of my life...... a contradiction in terms........nothing is clear........its all obscured by confusion or it has been very much so until maybe now, maybe getting less so now, I hope so.
Also this is one now a favourite too :)
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